It Can Only Mean One Thing...

Let's face it. I'm getting a little tired of peeing myself when I sneeze. And, while we're on the subject, why is it that when I have to pee and come even remotely close to a toilet that my bladder screams in protest because I'm not sitting on it?

Why is it that when I'm hungry, it's a matter of life or death?

Why is it that I cry at the drop of a hat?

Why is it that I have cravings for ramen noodles, of all things (so yucky... but sooo good)?

Why is it that it's getting uncomfortable to sleep at night (because I have to be on my side)?

I guess there can only be one answer....

For those of you who are unfamiliar with home pregnancy tests from the dollar store, two lines means what you think it does... I am 15 weeks (nearly four months) along now (as of Monday Sep. 14), my official due date March 8th. I'm having a baby!

It's all pretty crazy... but mostly exciting. To think of having our own mini Heidi or Chris puts a smile on my face... most days. I won't lie and say that I haven't felt the worry, fear and stress that comes with knowing our world is about to change drastically, especially with everything happening lately. Talk about high highs and low lows. However, I will say that now the initial shock of losing my job is gone, I've been able to enjoy myself at home - and find myself still busy. I also find myself wondering how moving into a new place and getting everything settled ever gets done when you work full time. It seems natural for me to be home, and though the money (or lack of) isn't our favorite part of it all, we're trying to get used to just one income.

I will say that this whole pregnancy thing doesn't seem real yet, although I've had a few appointments and a couple of ultrasounds already. We were able to hear the heartbeat at 12 weeks... which was unreal. It's amazing to see what they can pick up when your baby is so tiny! But, I'm not showing quite yet (that anyone other than me can see), and I haven't felt the baby move. But I think we may be finding out what we're having next week... so perhaps it will start to feel real then. For now, excitement is our main emotion... and luckily, it downplays all that worry, fear, and stress.

I don't have too many complaints, because I know it will all be worth it. I can't say it's easy to deal with who I am now, though - in addition to everything I named above, there's the fact that I can't eat chicken. Or turkey. Or beef... most times. Meat in general is pretty much a downer. I can't stomach sweets. I looove anything salty. It just happens to be that the only things I crave involve spending money... which doesn't help because we don't have any.

Luckily, ramen noodles don't cost much. Neither does mac and cheese... pre-pregnancy I wouldn't have given a second thought to these foods that don't do my body any good... but I find it very convenient that when taking care of my body is most critical, I don't want healthy. Except for veggies. Oooo, veggies....