R & R

Not that I need rest and relaxation too desperately... I've been a pretty lucky gal not to have to work while pregnant. While rocky it may be, financial-wise, it's been unbelievably nice not to have obligations such as early mornings and long days. Kudos to those who do it... you rock.

The trip I took to Florida was kind of an unexpected bonus. Thanks to the credit left to use from our Australia trip, we decided to use some of it to visit family. With my third trimester almost here (yikes!), my window for flying is coming to a close. And, after choosing the week of my vacation, Chris was hired on at a new job and was to start the day I was leaving. I think my pregnancy hormones had something to do with it, but I was hysterical the day before I left. I cried just thinking about leaving. At one point, Chris looked at me and said, "I didn't realize you were so attached to me." I guess I didn't either!

So, we may have done more had he come. But, truth be told - I felt like doing nothing more than being lazy. So that's what I was. Lazy. My sister Holly didn't mind at all - in fact, much of our time was spent lounging around the house with the kids, not ready for the day even one bit (aside from being awake) and looking like this.Talk about yuck-ville. Good times.

The rest of the time was spent getting to know the nephew and niece I never get to see.

Robby: Loves music. Only rock music. Dances like a rock star. Is smarter than any three-year old, or most teenagers, I know. Loves to tell jokes. Major poser.

Not only does he make a sweet Bono, this kid sure knows what tact is. When at a restaurant for dinner one evening, I came back to our table after using the ladies' room. I will never forget the question that came out of his mouth as I arrived and sat in my chair. "Did you poop on yourself?" he asked. I have no idea what was going on in that kid's head, but I was still chuckling several hours later.

Next, toward the end of the meal, our waiter came over to check on us. Robby, who loves Michael Jackson and is obsessed with "Black or White," took the liberty serenading him with his version of his favorite song. "... You're still my baby, it don't matter if you're black or white..." Talk about ironic. Our waiter happened to be African-American. Awesome.

Bree: Too Funny! LOVES food. Loves her mommy. Starting to put sentences together. Loves to play with her brother Robby and ALWAYS makes sure he is offered whatever she has. Abnormally thoughtful for an 18-month old.

At the same dinner I mentioned earlier, Bree was not interested in waiting to eat. This was obvious as she grabbed any plate she could reach and yelled "FOOD!" as loud as she could. She ate at least half of the giant turkey leg Holly got at Disneyworld when we were there.

She loves, loves, LOVES her brother. She'll ask for a drink (or anything, for that matter), and when it's handed to her, her first word is "Robby." Wanting to make sure her big brother gets the same thing, she'll say thank you after it's given to him. She sometimes will "feed" Robby by shoving whatever it is into his mouth, whether he wants it or not. It's quite entertaining.

I'm lucky enough to have visited Florida several times before, but there were some firsts for me this time. I had my first gelati (a combination of Italian gelato and ice cream), and a shake from Steak and Shake (both delicious). I visited Epcot for the first time in Disneyworld. We visited some new parks as well, and you'd think it was my first time feeding ducks. Maybe it was, I can't be sure. I'd hold out a cracker, and they'd take a snap at it - only to back away when I dropped it after snapping my hand back. I was a total wuss.

Here are some highlights.

Robby and I at this awesome park called Crane's Roost
Me, trying (and failing) to feed the ducks. See the cracker on the ground? I yanked my hand back so fast he couldn't even get near my hand. Like I said... total wuss.

I just can't get enough of this girl. Check out those cute little legs. You can't tell in this picture, but she's rocking black socks here. Love it.

My first time at Epcot, looking super nerd-tastic.

The Disneyland castle has NOTHING on this one.

It's seriously magical, and my favorite part of Disney.

Me and Hol. I don't see her enough. I laugh harder with her than with anyone. We missed you, Heather.

Robby and Bree wearing the cute Christmas shirts my sister Heather sent. She's a better aunt than me... pretty sure I don't send them stuff.

Did I mention Bree loves food?

That sweet little Robby tried to avoid saying goodbye to me the morning I left. As he looked up at me with tear-filled eyes, he made my heart sink. I miss these kids like crazy. And speaking of crazy, the next time I'll see them I'll have one of my own!

Our Tree(s)

Tree numero uno.

It's cute and little (and smaller than me... which never happens). And, it's real. We looked for our fake one in storage, only to remember that we gave it away... but don't remember who to. So, why not try a real one?

It was fun (for Chris) setting it up and getting it situated.
We put the lights on, put the star on top. I left for Florida on monday. Chris couldn't come because he started a new job, so it was his job to take care of the tree.

On wednesday or thursday, he informed me that he thought he killed it. He apparently didn't realize that he had to water it every day... and the next time he thought about it, the base was completely dry. Oops.

When I got home, I filled up the base, but apparently the sap formed over the trunk of the tree, and it wasn't thirsty anymore. It was, in fact, dead.

Enter: tree numero dos:

I was visiting my sister and she was giving this beauty to the D.I. So, I took it off her hands. Forget the real tree. This was free, it's not quite as small, and we can't kill it.

Works for us!

Juno and Paulie Bleaker?

Yeah, a little late... but keeping up on my blog hasn't been on my priority list for a while.

I know my stomach isn't nearly as big.... and Chris's colors are opposite. But, similar?

Either way, it was fun. And one of the most comfortable costumes ever, I might add.

Changes...

There are several things that have changed in my day-to-day life. For posterity reasons, and before I forget to write them down, here are a few.

• For one thing, I hardly blog anymore. Turns out being six months pregnant = no motivation for anything. And that, in addition to not having the internet at home, means that updating twice a month is good enough these days.

• It's amazing how much I think about the baby boy that's growing inside of me. I'm not sure I've made it even 5 minutes without thinking about him since we got the positive test result back.

• I find myself scratching, and caressing (yes, caressing) my belly throughout the day. It comes absentmindedly a lot of the time.

• I'm paying attention to kicks more, and sometimes nudge him to feel even more. I spent so much time thinking about how weird it would be having something grow inside of me that I never gave a second thought to how amazing it would feel.

• Chris has finally felt him kick a few times and gets excited, talking to my belly and asking Jack to kick more. I love to watch it. :)

• Someone asked me, for the first time, when I am due. It was kind of nice. I'm hoping that won't happen after I have him...

• It seems that, when I can, I eat every 2-3 hours. And, if I'm not hungry when it seems I should be, I get food ready anyway. Because when that hunger strikes, I need it. FAST.

• It seems that he kicks more when I need food. Or he needs food. If that's a sign of what's to come, I'm in for a real treat. Of course, I know that if he's anything like his dad, I'm kinda screwed. The guy who eats more than anyone I know... I'm amazed he's not 300 pounds.
  

• I seem to be constantly reminding myself that I will have a baby in four months. Yikes. I'm also constantly reminding myself that... um... I'm not ready. Not physically, mentally or spiritually.

• Although I don't think I'm emotionally ready for a child, I feel an emotional connection to this baby. I talk to him, stare at the movement that is happening inside my tummy, and on rare occasion, sing to him.

• He is constantly on one side of my tummy or another. It's become normal to me to look down and see my stomach completely lopsided. He likes my right side the most, I think.

I love the changes that are happening - and though it seems like everything is happening really fast, it's really exciting. I wouldn't change it for the world.

Too Good

Just have to share.

Timeline

Five and a half years ago, I was here:

Sydney is one of the most beautiful cities in the world, on top of being one of the most unique. I fell in love with it the moment I stepped off the plane - and though I was only there one weekend out of the entire month I was in Australia, I instantly made it my goal to go back again someday.

One year ago, Chris and I decided to move there. To Melbourne, actually, where we have some friends who would help us until we were able to stand on our own two feet. We sold our condo, moved in with my parents, and started on our visa.

Eight months ago, we found a rockin' awesome deal on tickets to Aussie land, which we took the liberty of purchasing (only to find out later how drawn out the visa process really is... a fact we hadn't realized until after taking a chunk out of our pockets). We figured we could just push the trip back for as long as we needed to. No worries.

Four months ago, we read a positive pregnancy test... and realized our dream of Australia would be put on the back burner indefinitely (but also realized how great the new adventure before us would be). But, having purchased our plane tickets already, we decided to have a great 3rd anniversary in the land down under.

Three months ago, we moved into a new apartment. We were ready to have our own space, and we knew it was needed with a baby on the way.

Two months ago, I lost my job. And while we had saved up some money while we were in the 'rents house, we quickly used that up with our new rent and utilities to pay.

So... we quickly realized, with our savings dwindling, that although we'd be able to get to Australia, our funds would be low while there... next to non-existant. It was then we had to decide whether or not to go anyway. Deciding it was the smart thing to do and knowing we'd eventually get there one day, we decided to cancel our trip.

A week and a half ago was our anniversary. Because we take turns every year planning it, I wanted to make it at least a little bit special.... though nothing could compare to a 14 hour flight, the destination being half way across the world (which was the original plan). I decided, a little too late, to use destinations around the valley to make it seem a bit like Australia. The Daybreak "beach," The zoo, Outback Steakhouse, etc.

The only stop we ended up at was this one: The Sydney "harbor bridge" (the overpass on Wasatch between 4500 South and 3900 South). We watched the sunset and enjoyed each other, until the cold was too much to handle. Later, we went to Ruby River... we weren't in the mood for the Outback.

Belly Shots...

This is me at 16 weeks (and looking rather happy, I might add).

This is me at 17 weeks (seriously not sticking out my gut). Amazing, isn't it, what a difference a week can make? I am now 19 weeks... and feel even more large, which is only a smidgeon of what I will feel, I am sure.
I always wanted to be one of those "cute" prego women who gain weight nowhere but their belly. To my dismay, that is definitely not the case with the girl pictured here. I want to say that it's quite amusing the way the rest of me (mostly below the waist) is growing as well... and while I know it's for a good reason, it doesn't quite make me feel better. While some women are lucky enough to wear the same pants they wore before pregnancy, I am forced to buy maternity clothes - which I will only be wearing for four and a half months. And force is, really, necessary. Especially for those of us who can't afford new clothes because we are trying to save every penny for the baby. And the maternity market knows that while we'd rather not buy clothes that will only last us six months (at the most), we have no choice. So, not only are we forced to pay way too much money for what we don't want, but some of us may not ever use them again. And if we do, who knows what will and won't be in style when our next kids decide to come. Sigh...

On the other hand, my sister in law just had her baby - and seeing the proud parents at the hospital and their new sweet little one was all I needed to get me even more excited for our little boy to grace us with his presence.

By the way, his name is Jack.

The Leaning Tower of Dishes

While my days of dreaming about a dishwasher are far from being over, I'm forced to settle with this... handwashing. Ah, the joys. Rather than drying the first half before digging into the second (which just leaves me washing dishes far longer than I'd prefer), this is the result. A literally leaning tower of dishes that, miraculously, stay put (as long as I'm strategic with the way I place them).

I guess it doesn't look too bad in this picture, but I'm really surprised, not to mention thankful, that there aren't more accidents in my kitchen (knock on wood).

He's Coming...

And looking rather cute already. We are so excited for our little guy to be here!

"It" is a he... and he wasn't ashamed to show us....

I'm amazed at how much they can see for something just four and a half inches long. I can't say how grateful I am for modern technology. Nor can I say how grateful I am to my friend Caley, who made this ultrasound possible for us. You are the best!

And, I was right. It does feel more real now that we know what he is. Looking forward to the next six months... hopefully I can see more of this tiny thing in my tummy.

It Can Only Mean One Thing...

Let's face it. I'm getting a little tired of peeing myself when I sneeze. And, while we're on the subject, why is it that when I have to pee and come even remotely close to a toilet that my bladder screams in protest because I'm not sitting on it?

Why is it that when I'm hungry, it's a matter of life or death?

Why is it that I cry at the drop of a hat?

Why is it that I have cravings for ramen noodles, of all things (so yucky... but sooo good)?

Why is it that it's getting uncomfortable to sleep at night (because I have to be on my side)?

I guess there can only be one answer....

For those of you who are unfamiliar with home pregnancy tests from the dollar store, two lines means what you think it does... I am 15 weeks (nearly four months) along now (as of Monday Sep. 14), my official due date March 8th. I'm having a baby!

It's all pretty crazy... but mostly exciting. To think of having our own mini Heidi or Chris puts a smile on my face... most days. I won't lie and say that I haven't felt the worry, fear and stress that comes with knowing our world is about to change drastically, especially with everything happening lately. Talk about high highs and low lows. However, I will say that now the initial shock of losing my job is gone, I've been able to enjoy myself at home - and find myself still busy. I also find myself wondering how moving into a new place and getting everything settled ever gets done when you work full time. It seems natural for me to be home, and though the money (or lack of) isn't our favorite part of it all, we're trying to get used to just one income.

I will say that this whole pregnancy thing doesn't seem real yet, although I've had a few appointments and a couple of ultrasounds already. We were able to hear the heartbeat at 12 weeks... which was unreal. It's amazing to see what they can pick up when your baby is so tiny! But, I'm not showing quite yet (that anyone other than me can see), and I haven't felt the baby move. But I think we may be finding out what we're having next week... so perhaps it will start to feel real then. For now, excitement is our main emotion... and luckily, it downplays all that worry, fear, and stress.

I don't have too many complaints, because I know it will all be worth it. I can't say it's easy to deal with who I am now, though - in addition to everything I named above, there's the fact that I can't eat chicken. Or turkey. Or beef... most times. Meat in general is pretty much a downer. I can't stomach sweets. I looove anything salty. It just happens to be that the only things I crave involve spending money... which doesn't help because we don't have any.

Luckily, ramen noodles don't cost much. Neither does mac and cheese... pre-pregnancy I wouldn't have given a second thought to these foods that don't do my body any good... but I find it very convenient that when taking care of my body is most critical, I don't want healthy. Except for veggies. Oooo, veggies....